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Sunday, May 08, 2005

7/5
Recap....
Study study study tats all I do...Hmm....went to eat wif mum, aunt, Jen and grandma coz mother's day.Haiz...bored...lucky got Jen company me.Then we tok tok about my sch life.Haiz..then tok tok until last time shawn's birthday tat time.Miss those time.Tat day was so fun!!Haiz...then tok until go bh there.I dunno wats shawn and sis reason was but if they think I'm too young then I dun mind waiting...anyway I have already waited 3yrs.Adding another 3yrs I dun mind...Ok...wat am i toking about?*knock my head*.Jen took my hp yesterday and read every msg in it.Heh heh 284...all so damn funny lohh.Dun want to delete it coz can keep as memories.Even Jen read she also laugh loh.Sometimes reading tis few msg can realli cheer me up....If everything is worth waiting 4 then I'll wait.If wat Jen said was true I realli dun mind waiting...But I think it was all juz her thinking.After all no one can understand wat others are thinking.

8/5
Argh....so scare tomorrow exam start le.Thinking of it makes my stomach have butterflies.Woke up at 7...juz to study.But nothing seems to get into my head.

Dear god,please tell me why.Love is always happy in the beginning but it is deeply hurt in the end.
Why is there no freedom 4 him to be.
Why he treated me lyk he dunno me?
Why do I always have to get hurt for those things he done to me?
Why must it be this way?
Why not the other way round he lyk me and not me lyking him?
I'm freezing to death by the coldness he gave me.
More and more pieces of my heart lying on the ground.
He and me are just frens,normal frens only.
I didnt take chance to win his heart.
But i no longer need to do so
as I already knew the answer
and I accepted it.

Ran's@ 4:01 AM